days till The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus! days till Alice In Wonderland! days till Rango!

Saturday, August 01, 2009
With effect from today.


I'll be at LJ :) gives me more privacy options.

But this blog site will still be up, if I ever decide t flounder here again.
It's served me well for 7 years, so I couldn't bear to close it!
deppaholic regurgitated at 5:06:00 PM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

deppaholic regurgitated at 2:34:00 PM

Sunday, May 24, 2009
A squirrel in the tree is he watching me
Does he give a damn?
Does he care who I am?
I'm just a man, is that all I am
Are my manners misinterpreted words or only human?
I'm human

Murderous crow, hey what you know
What you reading about, what you hold in your toes
Is that a twig, are you a dove of peace
A black dove undercover, with another puzzle piece
Are you a riddle to solve all along?
Or am I over thinking thoughts of human after all

Only human
Made of flesh, made of sand, made of you and me
The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise

'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, yes we are
Only human, only human, only human
So far

Up in the major's tree, the one he planted back when he was just a boy
Thinking 1923
Thirty meters and a foot, take a look, take a climb
What you'll find is the product of a seed
The seed is sown, all alone
It grows above, with a heart of love
Sharp and shelter of the animals of land and cold weather breathing
We're all breathing in

The planet's talking about a revolution
The natural laws ain't got no constitution
They've got a right to live their own life
But we keep paving over paradise

'Cause we're only human
Yes we are, only human
If it's our only excuse do you think we'll keep on being only human
Yes we are, only human, only human, so far, so far

And this place it will outlive me
Before I get to heaven I'll climb that tree
And I will have to give my thanks
For giving me the branch to swing on
If I ever fall in love
I'll have to give myself a baby
I will let my children have their way

'Cause we're only human, yes we are
Only human, so far, so far
deppaholic regurgitated at 9:21:00 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009

I think, I need one of these. LOL.
The cuff bit comes loose only after the timer runs out.
The ball weighs 9kg, I think.

Crud, after all these years, my lactose-intolerance has gotten worse.
Tsk, can't eat a bowl of cereal in peace without having t dash t the toilet half an hour later =.=

Anyway, my life's been back on track and Dez is happy once again. Hehehe. Therefore she is blogging on this blog. I am in quite a fix now, but both have happy outcomes - I'm currently waiting for an internship to the Digital Fringe, my interview is this Monday, zomg I am bloody scaredeggxcitedhappy. Wish me luck! x) Gneeeeh. I wonder what the workload's gna be like. Ah well, being prepared for the worst is better than being unprepared anyhow, I say.

This time period's the silent lull before the storm in week 12-13, I'm sure, where everything suddenly explodes into submission dates and lack of sleep and crabbiness and periods. So I think tomorrow I'm going t spend my whole day ventilating my brain and change Ernie's water.

<3 style="font-weight: bold;">To bestie:
I love you very much, please hang in there. I know things are really shitty now, but hey, upside is you learn about things by experience right? And growing stronger is never a bad thing :) Just be careful about how much you show the world that you've grown though, because guys hate girls overpowering them. It's true =.= And, if you need a different opinion to anything, or perspective, please tell me what's going on at your side, and again, if you need to talk sms me okay. <3 style="font-weight: bold;">To Ash:
I AM BEHIND YOU ALL THE WAY. I actually think you're going to make it ^^ Hehehe thanks for being there for me, and I really wish somehow this internship was in Singapore so I can go back and have funtimes w you again!! Miss the days in school where we'd just have the indian accent on almost th whole day hahaha. Keep me updated about how things go, love much much. <3
deppaholic regurgitated at 11:50:00 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009
This is horrendous.

I am totally not concentrating on my work that's due on Tuesday. Siggghhhhhh
Last night's Earth Hour was the bomb :D
Music was so good!! <3 The Barons of Tang came. THEY ROCK omg. I'm going to watch them again next Saturday in Richmond.

And happy birthday mummy :D I'm sorry if I sounded slightly distracted towards the end of the conversation, my friend was half-talking to me and this tribal person was handing out tribal shakers to me for their next song! I was at uni for the Earth Hour thing, and they had some sort of tribal performance hahahaha


There're too many things swimming in my head now. And the person that I want to talk to the most about all these shit things happening, keeps running away. Frustrated, puzzled, emotionally nauseous, grumpy, and indignant. And I think the sleep factor's playing up quite a large part of stress in my life. God. My head isn't agreeing with my body.

I need somebody to listen to me for once, and not judge me. Even if they do judge me, I hope they do it quietly inside. I'm sick of solving people's problems, and it's not even their fault that they complain to me about it, it's the fact that I have an insaitable desire to please everybody in their life and make them happy. It's just my luck that there are so many depressed people in Melbourne. I can't even share my deepest darkest secrets with anyone in my life. I don't think it'll be looked upon kindly.

And I can't even talk to Ernie or Gilbert 'cos I feel stupid sitting in front of a fishbowl and getting no response. In this case a dog might be best but oh well. Whatever. And writing, or ANYTHING fails to comfort me now because:

#1 I can't even write my feelings in my journal because I'm paranoid people will read it
#2 I can't write it here for obvious reasons
#3 Guitaring just isn't satisfying enough because I can't turn the volume up too loud
#4 Alcohol is stupid
#5 Friends aren't here / there and I don't want t bother them and they'll scold me anyway
#6 Art depresses me further
#7 I specifically need t talk to someone and that person is avoiding me / the subject
#8 Eating isn't my escape
#9 Complaining about this doesn't satisfy my turmoil neither
#10 I don't want company, because then I have t entertain them

OH GOD. I'm just going to do my laundry. I disgust myself.
deppaholic regurgitated at 5:56:00 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Right now, writing is just trying to forget what I'm writing, so that I can forget and just write.
deppaholic regurgitated at 10:50:00 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

This is so bloody exciting, I can't wait for it to come out :D :D
deppaholic regurgitated at 10:53:00 PM

Friday, March 06, 2009

I'm just as anxious - well maybe not AS anxious - as you guys about this!
May the force be with you guys :)
deppaholic regurgitated at 1:48:00 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I never understood what it means to be contented with life.

How am I supposed to relax if I get judged for being lazy?

I don't want to be anywhere in this world right now. I want to be in space. NOBODY is going to tell me how to live my life. Nobody's going to boss me, I will not have to want for attention from people, because I know there's no possiblities of them being in space with me. I want nothing more out of life, and I think that scares me the most. Everything else that I want is either hard to get, impossible, or tragically expensive.

Where's my goal, what do I achieve? After Uni, then what? I don't want to be a fat, balding animator that gets an average of 4 hours of sleep everyday, and still works at the back of a corps. I'm not even sure I want to be an animator. Sure, it's good pay, but the more I think about it...I mean, I spend at least 2 hours every single goddamn day with my guitar. I have only done one painting in 3 months. Doesn't that say something?

But I was having a small discussion with David, and it hit me that music is the only thing that's unspoiled in my life. Sure I studied a small part of it when I was younger, but I'm not like, taking a major degree in it or anything, or teaching it, or in a band. I used to escape with art, but not anymore. Art got ruined by demands. Which is ironic, because demand's what Art lives on anyway. Sigh. I think I should leave music unspoiled forever. Once you study it, and dissect it into little parts that you have to perfect, then it's just zilch. No soul, no rhythm, no primal instinct. Tch. Yuh, I shall not go into music.

Which leaves me with Art. Multimedia, to be exact. Think about this. 7 days a week, 7 hours on the computer, working, each day. What kinda life is that?!? Am I doing this course because I am better at it than my other subjects, or because I really love it? I can't say I love losing my eyesight. But somehow, I think over the past year, the troubles in my relationship made me hate school because I was losing so much sleep, and my emotions were massacred into crumbs that were strewn on dining tables all over the world. Honestly, I hated Melbourne for the most part because I wasn't allowed to enjoy my time there. So I'm hoping this coming year I'd be liberated, after all I'm living on my own :) And I'll finally have control over my own time!

Silly things like that clog my face and brain for a while, and I have to blog them out.
I'm still feeling stuffed because of a problem but I haven't thought about what it is yet.
This is just the tip of my mind's iceberg.

Whatever. I'm going to put Harvn's face here to destress, so you and I can laugh at it cos he looks like a nervous chipmunk that just received a golden acorn award.

deppaholic regurgitated at 3:02:00 AM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

is deemed auspicious because of its homonymic quality - yu means "fish" but enunciated appropriately, it also means "abundance", while sheng literally means "raw" but enunciated appropriately, it means "life".
Thus Yusheng implies "abundance of wealth and long life".
In Cantonese, it is known as lo sheng with lo also meaning "tossing up good fortune".
The tossing action is called lo hei, which means to "rise" (hei), again a reference to a thriving business and thus its popularity with businessmen during the New Year.

Step 1: All at the table offer New Year greetings.
Words: Gong xi fa cai meaning "congratulations for your wealth" or wan shi ru yi meaning "may all your wishes be fulfilled".
Step 2: Fish, symbolising abundance or excess through the year, is added.
Words: Nian nian you yu and you yu you sheng.

Step 3: The pomelo is added over the fish, adding both luck and auspicious value.
Words: Da ji da li.
Pepper is then dashed over the ingredients in the hope of attracting more money and valuables.
Words: Zhao cai jin bao.
Then oil is poured, circling the ingredients to increase all profits 10,000 times and to encourage money to flow in from all directions.
Words: Yi ben wan li and cai yuan guang jin.

Step 4: Carrots are added to the fish, indicating blessings of good luck.
Words: Hong yun dang tou.
Then the shredded green radish is placed on the fish, symbolising eternal youth.
Words: Qing chun chang zhu.
Next, the shredded white radish is added for prosperity in business and promotion at work.
Words: Feng sheng shui qi and bu bu gao sheng.
Step 5: The condiments are finally added. First, peanut crumbs are dusted on the dish, symbolising a household filled with gold and silver. As an icon of longevity, peanuts also symbolise eternal youth.
Words: Jin yin man wu.
Sesame seeds quickly follow symbolising a flourishing business.
Words: Sheng yi xing long.
Deep-fried flour crisps in the shape of golden pillows are then added with wishes that literally translate to mean the whole floor would be filled with gold.
Words: Pian di huang ji.

Step 6: All toss the salad an auspicious seven times with loud shouts of lo hei and other auspicious New Year wishes.
Words: Lo hei which is Cantonese for "tossing luck".
The ingredients are mixed by pushing them toward the centre, an encouragement to push on the good luck of all at the table.

In short, chinese people are really money-faced and live forever without conflicts.
We didn't stick to saying all those auspicious things, we just dumped all the ingredients together and infused them with english and chinese sayings. HAHAHA. I still like my pi fu rou rou. :)

For the past week I've been either REALLY FREE or REALLY BUSY. I feel so stretched at both ends. Tmr I'm going to Adel's school! :D So eggciting. But have to wake up really early :( Ahya whatever la I'm being paid shan't keep complaining. I hope all goes well.

This year's gna be good, I can feel it in my veinsbonesbrains. It started off pretty tentatively and cautious - it's getting pretty good, I predict it'll start t get bad in May when my final assignments all start being due, but I hope by June things will be better again! Eep Eep Ooray

I don't wanna stop drum lessons w David! He's a damn fun tcher lol
I don't wanna leave my family and friends.
I don't wanna leave you. :(

Melbourne blues.
BUT! I s'pose it will be gone once I get back and be busy about my new apt :) Heehee.
And study subjects that I actually want to learn! :D...except for theory. K la it's not THAT bad la quite interesting.

deppaholic regurgitated at 2:10:00 AM

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Desiree Seow Yanru

Exhuberantly Eighteen;
animal freak;
too skinny;
the earring expert.

Things in my head all the time:

To meet John Christopher Depp II <3
JD Hoodie
An authentic autographed JD poster
Cranium Game
Drum Set

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